"The Stairway Ghost" (Part I)--Lisl
Generations
perhaps dilute elements in family lines and in our case there was no exception.
My mother’s mother enthusiastically brought from Scotland endless stories of
people roaming the earth long after their demise—hauntings that frightened my
mother, Hannah, to no end. I heard many tales from the time of earliest
childhood but despite Mother’s belief that I, as a boy, enjoyed being
frightened, the reality was I simply didn’t believe them.
When
I was thirteen we went to live with Grandmother for about a year’s time in her
old, largish house, a misshapen oddity of many nooks, crannies, corners and
shadows. Mother’s old bedroom, which I slept in, had been mostly redecorated
but there remained a few items from the past: a prairie doll whose dress had
once been matched to the material on a lampshade, many old books, and a
hodgepodge of ridiculous small items she had saved from different places she
had lived. A soft toy—a wee mouse—made me shiver largely because it ought to
have been tossed long ago. The room had a somewhat musty smell to it what with stale
air trapped within its walls, I suppose, its owner being long gone.
Just
adjacent to the door was a stairwell: I had seen the maid descending earlier in
the day, which struck me as odd given there was a hallway above meant for her
to use. Assuming she snuck through this way for its easy access to the kitchen,
I let it lead me late the first night when I wanted something to drink.
It
was a very long stairway, the steps narrow towards the top, widening as one
descended and opened up to the lobby sort of area below. Having arrived at the
bedroom from the opposite direction, I was puzzled as to this result and
thought it strangely fortuitous to see the maid once more at the top of the
stairs, though wondered how I had missed her minutes before.
Running
back up to greet her, I was surprised to find her gone. “My” bedroom’s closed
north door sat at the start of a dead end, so there was nowhere for her to have
gone. Bleary eyed, I started towards the staircase again when I heard a muffled
cry and repeated, clackety banging, like shoes hitting against stairs as one
fell down them—at least that is what I thought had happened. I ran to help the
girl only to see an empty staircase.
I
couldn’t help but remember Mother’s story of Grandmother being pushed down these
very stairs, by an unseen hand that had to have belonged to the ghost of these
stairs, the woman seen so many times walking up and down. But she wore an old-fashioned
ankle-length dress, so the woman I saw couldn’t have been the same, though as I
thought more on it I could no longer picture in my mind what she had been
wearing. Strangely, I had assumed her to be the maid, perhaps from the
earnestly reluctant expression on her face, the sort seemingly stamped on to
people who have lived a lifetime of taking orders and having little say.
Curious
as to how this horrific racket had not awoken the house, I chalked it up to the
faraway other bedrooms and thick walls. It was an older estate and, as Mother
was fond of repeating, “New houses are cheaply made with thin walls and fake
tiling.”
A
short while later, having achieved my goal, I walked out of the kitchen and
through a hallway to cross the formal living room. Something gave me pause and
I looked out the window to a street wet from the earlier thunderstorm, scanning
the piles of wet leaves giving a fiery cover to the front lawn. Straight away I
sensed someone sitting on the sofa directly behind me. There wasn’t enough
light for me to employ a reflection in the window, but I knew someone was
there.
For
the first time my skin crawled; I knew it was neither Mother nor Grandmother,
and secure in the knowledge that none of my various relatives had arrived
later, I stood, deciding what to do. I had never experienced such an intense
feeling even after years of Mother’s own recollections of this house, and decided
to take charge. I turned quickly, expecting to see a menacing person, though
there was none. But I knew someone had been there, watching. It annoyed me that
someone should play such games and I called out a demand for whoever was there
to show himself. No one came.
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“I
beg your pardon—there is no maid?”
“Of
course not, why would I have need of a maid for the small part of the house I
continue to use?”
I
had to close my jaw consciously, for I knew very well I was not in the
habit of hallucinating or making up stories. No one accused me of lying, so I
was relieved at this, but thought it strange Grandmother didn’t question me
further as to why I asked about a maid I might have seen—as if she had no need
of any answer. Mother merely pursed her lips.
I
determined then and there I was going to get to the bottom of what has been
going on in this house since my mother was a small girl, and over time came up
against a number of inexplicable occurrences, despite their sometimes
contradictory natures. Mother, for example, used to sit at the top of the
stairs because she refused to go into her room at night until her sister, who
shared it with her, also retired for the evening. And yet there was supposedly
some aggressive ghost inhabiting the stairway? How would a young girl terrified
of apparitions manage to wait in an area known for a violent presence?
As
it turned out Grandmother’s days tended to be long and full, and the activities
she planned and chores and projects she had me help with when school was out contributed
to excellent sleep at night. Nevertheless one evening about a month into our
stay I woke in the middle of the night; seeing the clock I knew it to be Mother’s
time of the night right before what she called her “second sleep.” So it was
unsurprising to hear murmuring in the night, and I pondered that she and
Grandmother were having tea.
As
I lay in the darkness the moonlight began to spill into the window and I saw
the outline of Mother’s cedar tree outside, its coniferous branches reaching
out in the night in dark outline against the light in the sky. It was so
beautiful that it took me a full few moments to recognize a shape near the
window, that of a woman also looking out. She turned, as if sensing I saw her,
and put her finger to her lips to quieten me.
I
had not moved but an eyelash in the time I had awoken, and yet this woman
somehow knew I was awake and seeing her. This was absurd! I sat up, my attempt
being to shake out the sleep from my brain and catch the person sneaking into
this room, or at least recognize a dream when I see one. However, when I
switched on the light, of course no one was there.
As
I allowed myself to drift onto the pillow I heard once more the forgotten
murmurs, which lulled me into sleep.
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Over
the course of time I became a little angry: I went looking for phantasms
and saw nearly nothing, but seemed to dream a lot of them. What could at all
possibly be real yet disappeared upon further examination is what perturbed me,
and then is when the activity stepped itself up a notch.
The
light in my bedroom began to play up despite several months of being in perfect
order. Sometimes clothing in the room’s only closet was heard to move; that is
to say, the sound of hangers being pushed along a rod made itself clear. When I
looked, the clothes were always parted down the middle, as if someone had
inserted both arms and swiftly opened them wide.
Frequently
a breeze would pass through the room, not unlike that brought in when someone
steps inside from the cold. A strong scent began to filter through the room, a
flowery sort of perfume that seemed to have come from another time.
Occasionally I would hear a woman’s long sigh, and sometimes watch as a
depression appeared on the bed, as if some unseen person had just at that
moment sat upon it.
Soon
after I began to hear rapping on the wall across the room, a wall which Mother
had said divided the bedroom and another area my father had referred to as the
“attic,” despite it being on the same level as the bedroom. On that side of the
wall was virtually another century: no lighting or even walls or floorboard,
one had to step over rafters to advance through the area, eventually reaching
to above the stairs. I was sure I would find my culprit here and several times
sat watch to catch the person playing tricks on us.
I
later realized this area ran the length of the entire house, or at least that
crazy segment of it, and thought about the passageways in a house we had lived
in when I was smaller. With a friend I used to sneak through it to peep in the
keyholes of other parties’ sitting rooms, as it too ran the length of the
entire structure in which our apartment was housed. However, recalling one
story Mother had also told of a servant peeping through the keyhole where his
master and the devil played cards only to have his eye struck out, I determined
it prudent to cease this activity.
But
here would be no keyholes, only a wall dividing larger rooms, the back ones
being the perfect hiding places for my uncles to have played tricks on Mother
as she sat reading or hiding or what it was she did to escape the torment.
Really, I thought to them, a half smile playing on my lips as I contemplated
their wickedness, you were persistent, weren’t you?
The
first night I brought through with me a torch, mirror, bottle of water and a
paperback to pass the time. After awhile I thought I might have brought a
pillow, so sleepy did it make me, and indeed my eyes began to be heavy. At this
point I was next to the room actually across from mine, though inaccessible by
the formerly shared hallway. I’d had to climb over an arched area directly
above the staircase, so close I heard the tread of some restless night person.
Happening
to glance down where I had set my items, I could see the clear reflection of a
face in the mirror. I held my breath, awaiting discovery but the person
appeared unaware of my presence, even when I slowly picked up the mirror
framing its face. Watching in awe I saw that he—for I could clearly make out
this figure was male—was not bothering to glance my way as he was conversing
with another. I heard a sharp gasp to my left and when I looked, there too was
another eavesdropper! In her instance she appeared to detect what the pair were
saying; for me it was once more just murmurings. Despite this, the lone figure,
the same woman from my room some weeks prior, looked to me and once more put
her finger to her lips, then turned her attention to the conversation some
meters away from us, which only she could understand.
It
was all rather curious and I reflected upon Mother’s fear and how intense it
had, by her own admission, been. I was unafraid, but at that moment I admitted
to myself that for some time now I had believed the beings wandering this house
were not amongst the living. My mother had been right, and my heart sank in
pity when I realized how it must have been for her to grow up, terrified,
amongst all of this, knowing few others were also aware.
The
two gentlemen continued to converse on what must have been a serious and very
important topic, for they never once evidenced awareness of either my presence or the ghost’s, and after having witnessed this several times—always being
warned to be silent—I crept away, wondering if they ever would hear me.
The
attic continued on, as I say, for the length of this side of the entire house,
though the ghostly activity seemed to be concentrated in that stairway area—on
and above it, in the attic, and as well in the bedroom I guested in. Mother
must surely have known this for she steadfastly refused to visit me here and
she slept elsewhere. Like her mother before her, she housed her child in a
haunted set of rooms, though in this case the child was more curious than
afraid.
On
some evenings in my secret reading spot I distinctly felt as if someone were
looking over my shoulder at the book I held; the sensation I received was
curious but unable to decipher what I had. Sometimes I would hear a soft tread
on the stairs directly below me, and occasionally the clackety sounds of fast
or falling feet. After having heard it numerous times it dawned on me that the
exactness of the sounds gave the impression of a re-enactment.
I
did sit on a number of occasions at the top of the stairs, trying to channel, absurd
as it may sound, what Mother had been feeling when she sat there as a little
girl, too frightened to go into her own bedroom. Though she had told me many of
the stories, I didn’t know them all, and I wondered that this mystery,
admittedly with a different angle now, might never be solved if I didn’t know
all the details. We were only meant to stay here for a year while my father was
in the Army, and time was running out…
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